Poems By Simon Beechinor

This relatively long free verse poem is loosely based on my autobiographical short story ‘Mayday’. It describes the events surrounding a ship with a timber cargo on one October night in the English Channel. For artistic reasons some details have been changed or omitted from the poem. Any resemblance to any events or persons living or dead is purely coincidental. Listen to: The Bothnia Star Part 1 - A Warning The letter and photos lay on my desk, sent from Archangelsk in Russia, by a frightened, but courageous young seaman with no one to turn to for help. The pictures were of two of our ships loaded at Baltic Sea ports, full and deep-laden with packs of sawn timber bound for the African coast. The sunlit waters of the western Med glittered and lapped at their main decks as they anchored after ten days at sea; then, I saw why he was pleading with me. Both ships were laden too deep in the water; their captains had risked their lives and those of their crews —for a bribe. They were but two

This poem, written in contemporary free verse, is the second in the 'Kildare' series. Listen to: When Mother Read The News Armed with a mug of instant coffee and a fag, my mother opened the Daily Telegraph , and read for a while, before her eyes fell on the brief article: ‘The British bulk carrier, “Kildare”, 153,000 tonnes dwt,  is reported missing in the Indian Ocean.  The crew are reported safe,  but the ship’s owners have provided no further details.’ She scanned the pages, sucking hard on her fag, drawing smoke deep into her lungs, urgently seeking a clue searching for news of her son, reaching for her mug, for something to do. The telephone rang, she flew to the phone; it was him, the nice man from the office. His courteous, soothing voice assured her we were all safe (we weren’t), though not yet in port. The nice man oozed with confidence; all would be well, (it was the ‘70s after all). She grumbled she’d seen the article before the courtesy of a telephone call, but she

This poem is dedicated to my belovèd. Written in  sonnet form, the poem invites the reader to consider ageing by the extended metaphor of nature's tidal rhythms, to arrive at a place of acceptance and even anticipation for what each new ‘tide’ of life might bring. Listen to:  A Sonnet on Ageing No longer will I heed my years advancing, But measure life by what I’ve done instead, For deeds, like tides, usher in my future, To leave my past exposed upon their ebb. For the flooding tides that shape this life lived, Will turn heedless of my hopes or damage wrought, And by their rhyming touch, the tides demand  No celebration but relentless change.  Such tides convey my fortunes, and scour  My shore, until by subtle shift each ebb   Reveals new gifts, of soft grained golden sands, The sea-worn shingle, and perhaps a pearl.  So walk with me along the high tide mark, We'll see what gifts this morning's tide has brought.

This free verse poem, written in the form of a letter to my unborn son, explores my feelings of loss and loneliness when my pregnant wife and young son returned to the UK in readiness for our new arrival. Listen to: A Poem on Departure Dear Thomas, I should be used to being alone. My life has always been one of departures, but they’ve been my leavings; I have left others behind, and not always returned. Now I’ve arrived home, after taking your mother and brother to Jackson’s Airport, where for the first time it was I who was left behind. The airport was alive with raucous travellers and their wantoks , jostling and shoving through the crowd, with bulging bilums and striped nylon bags, and piglets squealing in woven grass cages. We entered the dilapidated terminal, where the babbling voices of the nervous crowd filled the departure hall, overwhelming the tannoy calling the flights in Tok Pisin , Women in meri-blouses and men in lap-laps exuded a fug of sour body odour and sweet buai ,

This free verse poem is written in the form of a letter to my two young children who were on holiday and in the UK without me. Listen to: A Game of Golf Dear James and Thomas, There’s an upside to being here alone, I have time to learn to play golf, but there’s a twist to the local game that’s born of poverty and culture too. Tribespeople are drifting from villages in the central highlands to the coastal plains, looking for work and a place to live. For want of anywhere to stay they’re building ramshackle settlements on open land, and one such camp runs parallel to the fifth fairway. The sun is harsh. By mid-morning it’s stinking hot, there’s little shade, no services and no water, even the greens are brown. The men have made primitive firearms, and roam in vicious gangs to attack and rob other tribes—of which we are one. They do it as a means of survival, but I’m sure they’ve a good sense of fun as well. When I tee-off at the fifth, I’m joined by a pair of security guards who accompa

 Listen to: No Kiss Goodnight I sat beside my father's old arm chair, As he read Treasure Island aloud to me; Each page he turned was like a lapping wave, Each chapter read, a flood or ebbing tide. The library book smelled as old books do; I smelled Flint’s hapless shipmate, Billy Bones, Awash in Widow Hawkins' untaxed rum, And tasted gun smoke on the salt-laced air. The rain dripped on the windowpane outside, I held my breath in mortal dread with Jim, As Blind Pew tapped along the cobbled lane, Steeped in menace, searching for old Flint's map. He closed the book with a resounding thud, Like cannon shot that barely passed me by, I stood up from the floor beside his chair, And leaned toward him to kiss him goodnight. For what fault of mine did he push me away? "You're too old for kisses now, child, to bed!" The room turned as cold as a Channel fog, And grief held fast this troubled boy’s heart. My bewildered child’s mind churned with doubt, Would I know my s

 Listen to: A Sonnet On Reunion This free verse poem in sonnet form was written following my reunion with three of the seven other cadets with whom I first went to sea in 1975. I left life's fuss outside, like muddied shoes, And stoked the embers of my memory To spark with laughter at our meeting, How bittersweet it was to greet old friends. Barely familiar were those life-lived faces, And yet, by smile or turn of phrase or look, I swiftly sped through fifty fleeting years, To find those men the decent friends they were. We lived hard lives and lived so brightly then, Yet though I've lived more full and vibrant since, Those friends gave meaning to my restless youth, Far more than anyone or place I’d known. We went to sea as boys and they remain As men, the friends I knew and know once more.

Listen to:  The Horse Chestnut Tree Oh, horse chestnut tree, friend of my tender years, By autumn's sunlight how sublime you seem. Unspoiled by time or bleeding canker’s lesions, You stand in perfect mellow beauty poised, Amid this season’s early falling leaves. Do you remember me—the guiltless child, Who played each endless-seeming summer's day, Beneath your broad, full-leafed and rounded crown, Awaiting autumn's amber-turning leaves, To gather your gift to life—your spiny husks? In waking, stirring breezes, I tossed sticks At your low boughs that bent toward the earth, To cause your pricking, bright green fruit to fall For birds and creatures small to feed, and me  To peel, and hoard the shining seeds within. Now, as I stand beneath your boughs, once more Among your rustling leaves, I hear your voice: I remember your lonely childhood games; I’d smile at each affronted pigeon’s call, And the wise, plump brown tawny owl stayed hid; I welcomed you and your gambolling dog, An

Listen to: A Sonnet to Sleep I yearn to lie with longed-for Sleep at dawn, Her gentle hands to shade my eyes from light, And hear her sing her sweet enchanting song, To soothe and calm the turmoil of my mind. Oh, weary night, allow me rest by day, To lie in perfect, peaceful ease with Sleep, Let her pillowed breast hide my secret tears, Her arms to hold my looming conscious cares. For when my mind does spin like autumn leaves, My wakeful conscience with fatigue conspires, To deny my hearing Sleep’s lulling call, And she ignores my aching soul’s desires. Shush—What siren's lullaby is this I hear? Oh, blessed Sleep, come close, and close my eyes.